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[20 Sep 2006|07:13pm] |
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I'm just saying, I'm freaking tired of being tired all the fucking time. I have four or five things I could do right now, and I want to do none of them, but I'm tired. Sick of college, not sick of animals, sick of cooking, sick of thinking about going to buy groceries at Walmart, you know, where I work all the freakin' time.
I need to figure out how to not be tired. Sure, you think sleep... point being, I sleep all the time. I think, it's depression. I have dim lights in the living room, and can pretty much count on watching TNT so that I can catch Law & Order or Gone Without a Trace. That's not much of a life. But I'm so busy all the time when I have time, want to do nothing. Which, is exactly what I'm bitching about, not doing anything.
If I could do it again, I think, I might still be doing drugs, running around to raves and parties, with my colored hair, kick ass moves, and carefree existence. I remember being so happy then. My life was meaningless, but I enjoyed it. I decided to be something, and now I just want to be that 19 year old, troubled, angry, sad, and sparkly. Being something, it's just so exhausting. I feel so good when I hand raise a squirrel, or that I'm raising BiJou, and that my fish dance.
But myself, just tired, old, and sad. I would wear makeup, but whats the point. My expression eliminates any attempt at being seemingly happy.
I used to want to be the smartest person in the entire world. I get no satisfaction anymore, that I make straight As or that I can get a 107 even though I do crosswords during class and study that morning.
I'm just so sad. I want to be free of this constant school. I want to reabsorb into a world of laziness. What does it matter really. No one cares if I makes As or Fs. If I'm a vet or just a stocker overnights at Walmart.
This, this is a loss of existence, or something.
Maybe this is what a midlife crisis is.
Utterly destroying.
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[05 Sep 2006|05:17pm] |
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Well, it's more random post. I felt a feeble need to just talk. And outside of my Boston Terrier, who doesn't feel like listening and would rather nap, I have fish.
I have no life. It needs to be said that deciding to go to vet school, while promising, has absorbed and digested all sense of being that I ever had. I have a few friends, but they are all work friends. Meaning, I seem them, and we're cool, except, I normally see them while cleaning up animal poop or slaving away to the masses at Carbondale Walmart.
I have a lovely dog though. And even somedays, I find myself cleaning up after her when she can't hold it long enough. 3 more weeks and she'll be old enough to officially, if not purposefully, control her bladder.
Getting into vet school is no easy task! I take 20 hrs a semester, have 3 volunteer jobs, and 1 paying job so that I can feed myself, the pets, wear clean clothes. And if I can schedule a visit in to my mom and friends back home, I inevitably cannot see everyine which causes some discourse, and a promise to fit another visit in soon.
2 more years of crap. Then I'll be in vet school. Then all of this won't be a struggle every day, but one I've overcome.
This really means nothing, but makes me feel better. I feel like my brain just took a big crap in this livejournal, and atleast this is one poop I don't have to clean up.
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| Reconnecting with the LJ |
[14 Mar 2006|07:22pm] |
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How many freakin' times can you say... OMG!!! It's been so long since I've written in my LJ... ahahahahah.
Alright, I already said it.
So, here I am, a gazillion years later, thinking, GEEZ what in the EFF will I put in this post? I could try to do entries and entries of catching up... or I could just say what's up right now..
Currently I'm enjoying Bruce Almighty, my new Calico Fantail (watching him, that is) and the fact that I'm on Spring Break 2006! Spring Break leaves one with lots of time to think, and currently I'm thinking about this:
Me and Chris K talked about this on the phone the other day, however, it's still fresh in my mind. I just recently watched the Passion of Christ, and might I say I found it rather grotesque. Now, believe me, I believe in Jesus and the Lord, and so forth.. But I thought I was going to be moved by this movie. Instead, I was so put off by the gore/blood that I think I lost touch with the story. Just the thought now of the flesh peeling images, and blood, and blood eyes, and squirting noises as they pounded in the stakes.... it sends shivers down my spine. It's like mixing a SAW movie with the story of Jesus... They're both kind of demented, although one is dealing with redemption and the other with a couple of kids' rich fix. And part of me wonders, am I worse off for having not felt the power that this movie moved so many other people with. Will I get to the gates, and Jesus be like.. "So, you didn't like the Mel Gibson... that was your golden ticket, I'm sorry." Personally, I just think that church, and bible school, and vbs, just do NOT prepare your for the blood and gore that Mel Gibson had in his movie. If I was a church mom, I don't think I would let my kids see this movie. In fact, this is just my opinion, but I'm 24 and I don't think I was really ready/okay with seeing it. Yah, Passion...**shivers**
Different topic.... Let's get to know the tank fish: We have Abugazaleh, Apgar, & Zngi. These are all forms of goldfish. Abu and Apgar are both giant Calico Fantails. Zngi is a little bitty moor. Also, there is Ginger the plecostamus, Mike the Snail, Margu the Corydoras, and Kraggers the Blue Lobster. However, Abu, Apgar, and Zngi are the focus of the current topic. We have an airstone in the corner of the tank. In maintaining adequate filterage, one most have lots of O2. So this airstone produces quite the current. And several time a day, I will look over to see the fish trying to swim into the current. This is EFFING hilarious!! This big fish can barely do it, but poor little Zngi, he has no hope. But, he's hanging with the big boys and thinks he should.
At this point, I feel the my fish is teaching the life long lesson... it's either A) Never give up, against any odds... or B)Find glee in your ignorance.
We salute you Zngi, never let anyone tell you you're a small shrimp!!!
FINAL TOPIC: Morgan Freeman as a God Figure... Discuss!!
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| Happy Christmas, 1 day early! |
[24 Dec 2005|02:37am] |
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So, I'm sitting at home, for the three days I'll be here... Just thinking, what am I going to do, I'm bored. Then I remembered that I had a Live Journal! And wow, has it been neglected!! We said sorry and made up, so it's all good.. And now I write a message!!
After a frustrating, exhausting, bustin' ass semester.. I got a 4.0. A 4 'F-IN' POINT 0 That's in 7 classes... all A's. Suddenly graduating Magna Cum Laude is not impossible! I'm extremely happy I finally figured out how to make college work for me.
In sadder news, the Splenden Empire is suffering at the hands of the EVIL 'Fish Tuberculosis' The original count, 13. Now it's a mere 10. It's horrible to lose fish that you are personally attached too. The most horrifying is that my favorite fish Nemo... he's on the block. I even sent off to California to buy him medication, and it didn't work! So, we go through extreme sanitation.. And today, I notice that Stars and Stripes has tail rot. FOR NO REASON.
And that's just it. Fish tuberculosis kills for no reason. I have no idea who had it first, but it has spread through the fleet. It's even possible the infection came from their food. FOOD, that I buy from professional brands, that is supposed to be safe. It's sad, but if you can find the time... Say a little Fish Wish for these two Wonderful Fish
God Be With Them, I hope I can Save Them
And in other sad news, I would also like to extend my deepest sorrows for this guy:
Anyone that would steal a penguin is a loss to humanity. That is absolutely ridiculous and heartless. And if it were true, that some Asshole thought they should steal a penguin cause they saw "March of the Penguins," well then.. they didn't fuckin' pay attention to one of the saddest movies I've ever seen. Nature is cruel enough to those that try to survive it. And how sad is that movie (not to ruin it for anyone that hasn't seen it). But it makes me ashamed to be alive..in a way. Humans are the parasites for all animal kind. If it's not deforestation, pollution, overharvesting, ruthless slaughter, well then it's Extinction. And here's a big tip for all the PRO HUMAN people in the world. THE WORLD IS AN ECOSYSTEM. No matter how you look at it. There are creatures there that are there for a reason. Whether it be the detrital creatures that clean up the shit that comes out of your ass, or the spiders that eat all the bugs you don't want to bite you at a BBQ. All this beautiful life that just dies, because we need perfume (an whale oil is an excellent preservative) or because we need another motherfuckin' Walmart in the World. It's is just... Just Frustrating.
And after my rant... God Bless You, Toga. It's horrible that you were stolen from your family. A family of two penguins that everyday goes back to their nest box to find you. I hope that someone finds you in time, and until it's confirmed that it's too late, I will hope you were a strong enough penguin to make it back home. God Bless your Penguin family too. I can't even handle losing a fish, let alone wonder how hard it is for two animals to lose their soul purpose in their lives. And if you don't make, I apologize for the senseless people in this world that feel that everything was meant for them, and leaves nothing to the beautiful processes of nature.
I can't even finish posting now, because I have upset myself. Poor little penguin, and it's poor helpless family. I know its just a penguin, well.. I guess its not just a penguin to me. It's a life lost in the worst case scenario.
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| Oh please let Friday come Soon!! |
[08 Mar 2005|03:11pm] |
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I am freakin tired!!
I've been studying nonstop for freakin ever,
Atleast it seems that way.
But right now, I"m taking a break..
To write the ol' journal,
And say..
PLEASE LET FRIDAY COME
So anyway..
Let's talk about what's on my MP3 Player...
I currently just got done uploading:
Norma Jean ~ 0 God, The Aftermath
Children of Bodom ~ Trashed, Lost, & Strungout
Dark Tranquillity ~ Character
Black Label Society ~ Mafia
Bury Your Dead ~ Cover Your Tracks
See, it's the smart thing to do. When you have no time to break from studying to work. Well then, you take work with you to study!! And that, is what the above is doing!! I'm currently checking out the new Norma Jean on my computer, while I wait for Mafia to finish uploading. And I'm thinking I like it.!!
And hey, random band thought.. Damn, The Warriors kick much heated ass!! They are playing with Remembering Never, Terror, The Acadia Strain, and & someone else at the Creepy Crawl for like, 5 dollars in April. And I am freaking going!! That's super cheap, and I have a love for the Vegan kids of Remembering Never!!
So, Sunday, I have an interview with Killswitch Engage! WOOT! That means, I get to see Killswitch Engage, whom I haven't been fortunate enough to see yet. I'm freakin elated! I don't even care so much, about the interview, as much as I really, really, really, want to see the band!
SIGH, The Metal Life is good to me.
And speaking of Metal things, Chris.. I'm sorry I've missed your phone call last week, for sure. If you had an idea of how much time I dont' have to study, I think you would forgive me!!
But if it's any consolation, I miss talking metal with you, and being inornately vulgar and loud! For a good reason!!
And, to sum it up... Yah, I've got nothing. I'm just tired, and Mafia is done, so it's time to go do some reading!!
Au Revoir, mes amis! J'espere vous trouver les heures etre content!!
~*jamie*~
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| ANGER.. Well, not really |
[15 Feb 2005|01:58pm] |
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Freakin, today is the day, that I update WIDBs MySpace account.
And it seems, the MySpace is having some type of nuclear metaldown.
OH NO!!
I have tons of things to say!!
I got news today,
That i have an Interview with Killswitch Engage 3/13!!
WOO, that's exciting news for me!
I mailed off my proposal for the NEM&HCF passes today.
I must say,
It is two pages of my finest typed work!
And now,
I'm planning for the future!!
Like, I'm interviewing Trivium on Friday!!
And that's only 4 more days,
And One Evil, evil, evil Genetics test away!!
And then the next weekend,
I'll be interviewing the Calico System..
If they ever get back to me..
Maybe I'll write again.
AND THEN..
Actually, I have no and then after that.
I know I can 'possibly' get an interview with Slipknot..
Who is playing with Lamb of God and Shadows Fall,
But what I"m saying is..
I would really like to have an interview,
With Lamb of God or Shadows Fall!!
Perhaps, I shall speak to one of their labels.
And swear my first born child to whomever it is,
That wants to make that possible!!
LOL
So, anyway..
Without MySpace to update,
I'm just longing out the window..
Cause it's nice, as I don't know WHAT outside today,
And here I am, sitting inside!!
I wish I were playing badmidton (sp?)
I guess, reluctanly,
I'll go study some genetics!!
Hope you guys are having an nice day!!
Cause, I myself, am having a nice day..
And I'm spreading the love, of serenity!!
Metal Love People!!
~*jamie*~
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| Happy, happy thoughts, my friends!! |
[12 Feb 2005|10:41pm] |
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**** GIVING YOU SOME HAPPY ****
I know that these don't seem to come very often,
but that doesn't mean that I don't have them.
So, let it be known, to all those that care,
That I am one happy person today!
I came home this weekend,
Because my sister was like.. hey JD
Where the fuck you been all my life,
You should come home and kick it cool style!!
So I did, and it rocked.
Although,
We've managed to both go to bed,
By 11 o'clock both nights,
But it seems we both lack sleep,
So this weekend has done us some good.
Today we bought my mom flowers for Valentine's Day.
Seems facile to many of you, I'm sure,
But there is nothing nicer than making your family smile!
My mom pretends not to care,
But you know..
When you call so long, thinking your kids don't care..
Cause let's face it,
When you get older, it's not that you don't care,
It's just you forget to show it.
I think parents go unnoticed,
As their children try to become their own person.
So you always gotta give back how you can,
Because I know that I, personally,
Would never be as lucky as I have been with my mom.
And my Dad too, really..
Although, He is hard to talk about, so I won't.
So then, me, Mom, & Jill
Rocked out to the Mall,
And spent 5 mindless hours enjoying each others company.
Jill, kind of under duress..
Got this really smokin' hot outfit..
Now, she needs to go out an Pimp it hardcore..
Cause she also, got her hair done this weekend.
AND WATCH OUT
Cause my sis is on FIRE!!
I'd post a picture,
But I doubt that I'll get a chance to take one..
Maybe over spring break!!
SO,
In a more self-absorbed happiness.
Let's assess the fact that I bought a Large today.
That may not seem like much to many of you,
But that is alot to me!!
There was a time, I could only dream of wearing a large,
And now I can wear one and not look like I squeezed into it!!
Even my new WIDB t-shirt is a large,
So that makes me happy!
I suppose if any of you had a weight issue,
You would be happy too!!
Of course, I still wear my old clothes,
Which do my weight loss no justice,
But you know,
I love my old clothes!!
LOL, and they rock hard, so why get rid of them? !!
And this large, was a BRAND NEW
Zip up hoodie.
It's a Green DC shoe hoodie,
And I love it!!
My first hoodie, was in fact,
A Blue DC shoe hoodie,
That I still wear (and it was a XXL)
So Ha, I've did it,
And Now, I can be happy with myself.
And maybe a little more,
I don't know, energetic about going to the gym?
But I think, that less likely,
As working out falls second to studying!!
And, PS.. Kicking all my classes asses too,
So I'm definetely happy about that.
I don't know!!
I'm just happy today.
I think it was my sister inviting me home,
And then of course, the fact that we hung out all weekend.
Cause Jill used to never be able to do anything.
And now, we're going to school together in the summer,
And then, she's rocking out to Carbondale,
Where we will take over the universe.
And I don't think us,
running the universe, is so bad myself!!
Alright, I"m going,
To sleep, maybe..
Probably,
And if any of you need a little happy,
Take some of mine!!
I've got plenty to go around right now!!
~*jamie*~
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[11 Feb 2005|02:09pm] |
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Man, it's finally over!
I finally, can sleep at some point of today.
Do you realize I am running on a collective 12 hours of sleep for the week?
ARE YOU FUCKIN KIDDING ME
It's so weird to know, that I'm not obligated to do anything,
That I feel strange in the absence of stress.
So ANYWAY
My Kid Sis called and asked me to come home this weekend!!
That's frekin' awesome..
So that's where I"m going!
I should be on the road very shortly,
And the then madness of C-Hills will take over!
It will be nice to be with someone that is excited to see me!
This, a welcome change from the anonymity of being at SIUC.
So there it is!
I'm kind of bummer because Annihilate the Hero is playing the Carbondale tonight,
BUT
Who in the HELL would not want to hang out with my sister?
She encompasses a divine 'opinion' of life,
And you know you're crackin' up at the thought
Of someone using the term 'Bitch, please,' in any conversation!!
So Au Revoir Carbondale!
Je retourne sur Dimanche!!
~*jamie*~
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[09 Feb 2005|07:49pm] |
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I do believe that I've lost all faith in Humanity.
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| Sighs & Yawns & HUNGER |
[09 Feb 2005|09:59am] |
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Whoa! Just whoa!
I'm so sitting at the station right this very moment.
Being bored, per usual.
That's right, the three hour power 'rocking the station BusinAZZ is overwhelming at times.
CHRIS ~~~~
Where in the HELL are you?
This is the day,
When we pretend we're doing radio related things,
And really, just talk on the freakin' phone for 1.5 hours,
About..
Well nothing really..
I guess, we talk about music most the time..
AND OH THAT'S SO MY JOB!!
So, I have this interview with Agnostic Front tomorrow!!
Holy freakin' Cow, that's awesome.
NOT so awesome,
I"m so wiped out from rockin' Denny's till 4 in the morning,
Studying for a Chem Exam that I thoroughly kicked ass at!!
I have no willpower to write any questions,
And that's bad news..
Because, I must get this done,
Along with studying for a Mammalogy Lab Practical,
And writing a 10 minute long presentation in French for tomorrow's class.
3 hours of sleep + ALL of the Above,
NOT SO GOOD
But that's okay, cause I'll make it..
Just gotta get to the 18th..
the 18th!! I tell ya..
And then, All glory will break loose,
As I, THE J 'freakin' D
Get to interview TRIVIUM..
Does everyone know my love for this band?
Dude, I so get to buy a T-shirt..
I so get to get to see someone famous where my radio station's T-shirt..
And Just to think, it's only the beginning!!
DUDE..
Those of you I haven't told,
I SO SO SO..
Created a MySpace for the Radio Show.
ANd I think, that we should be FRIENDS!!
*woot woot*
Just use friend finder and search metal@widb.net..
And you can see the glory, of my site!
I'm totally stoked! <--- That word rocks!!
So, son of a Bitch, I guess, I'll go do some work.
Write some interview questions..
Any suggestions?
I'm taking!!
Alright, Keep it Metal and Love to All!!
~*jamie*~
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| Pro-Tools |
[05 Feb 2005|02:38pm] |
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DAMN YOU Pro-Tools, just DAMN you.
I've been here for freakin' ever!!
Why didn't I learn how to use Pro-Tools..
I don't freakin' know..
Acid Pro, Sure, no problem learning what I'm doing..
Pro-Tools Help Menu..
OH, it doesn't load.
Okay, it's not really that bad,
Just.. you know, a 20 minute project that became two hours..
And I'm honestly, tired of being here.
And now, I"m off.. to make an album!
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| So, I'm sitting at WIDB |
[04 Feb 2005|12:01pm] |
Ahahahahaha, Isn't this where I always am, when I freakin' post.
Probably, because I have tons and tons of office hours.
So anyway,
I'm going to take this moment, to be..
Reflexive.
It's so rare I get a moment to think,
That I'm going to appropriately utilize this time!!
Numero Un!
I am freakin' tired. I'm not mad that I am tired, because I realize it is my own fault. I haven't caught up on sleep, for the entire week. I have this problem, see. I'm a compulsive worker! I can't leave work if things are unfinished or it's busier than sin. So, feels good, knowing I"m there for my coworkers.. Not so good, that I'm always always tired.
Another reason I'm tired, me and the infamous Ronstoppable went out to Denny's last night, AFTER I worked 2 hours later than I should have, and AFTER I proceeded to watch him kill 'the Big Boy' in Resident Evil 4. But it was WAY neato.. That game rocks!
Numero Deux!
WHOA I took a heavy classload this semester. But, it's absolutely the most awesome thing ever!! There are too many numerous neato, you don't really need to know this facts that I could recount here, that I'm not going to start to extricate them from my brain's 'saved files.' Just know, I know things that no one wants to know.. and that excites me!
Speaking of class, French Conversation is where it is At! One of the most challenging classes I have taken! Yesterday in class, Julio (one of my classmates) asks me, in French class, in French, if I would like to go out with him that night. WHO in the HELL asks someone that in front of an entire Class!! That possibly takes the cake for embarassing moments in my life. Flattering: Yes.. Red In the Face: YES. You've got to be kidding me.
Also, this semester, I seem to have reached some type of 'status' persay. I do not go a day, without stopping to have a conversation with atleast 4 people.. who know me from here. And I'm not talking, just Hi.. but an actual conversation. Sounds retarded, until you consider just how big a campus is, and how awesome it is, to have made yourself 'known..' kind of. Pretty cool, it's like.. the college equivalent of celebrity! Ha ha
Numero Trois!
WHOA I've got dreams for the metal sector of WIDB! I've been busting my ass, coming up with Ideas, and schemes, and while it's in the tough part of working them out, this place is about to rock the metal HARDCORE.
Let me just feel accomplished in the fact that next week, I have an interview with the Lead Singer of Agnostic Front, on the 18th I have an interview with Trivium, on the 25th I have interview with Calico System, and in April me and Chris K. are heading all the way to Worcester, MA for the New England Metal and Hardcore Festival!! DAMN, that's productivity!!
Not too mention, I've started the MySpace site for the Metal Show, and I am continually getting craploads of music!!
And now, I have to go to freakin' class, and well.. I've run out of freakin' time..
More on the Later!!
~*jamie*~
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| News, News, News |
[25 Jan 2005|02:15pm] |
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So, I'm chilling, here at WIDB.. listening to.. Crap, really.
HA HA HA HA HA
BUT, more importantly.
Sitting next to me, on the freakin' desk..
Is the NEW Trivium CD.. Ascendency.
I'm so excited.
I think I might explode, actually!!
I want to go home right now,
And check it out.
BUT, I have a metal review in like, 40 minutes..
In other news..
Don't ever, ever, buy Frantic Bleep.
Chris, did you get this?
I'm talking..
It's like Type O vocals.. with a flair of feminine..
But needless to say,
Track 6 'Curtainraiser' over metal angst on guitar..
Goes: ' Dance, Dance, Dance. Dance my Fairy Queen, Dance.'
WHAT THE FUCK..
That's just horrible, all there is to it.
I think I'll add to the pile of crap in the vault..
Mon Dieu, this is horrifying..
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| Well, well, well |
[18 Jan 2005|03:51pm] |
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So, I'm back.. sitting here at WIDB..
Staring aimlessly around, contemplating actually doing something..
NOT REALLY
Contemplating going home, cause I got 8 more minutes of office time baby..
And I'm free.
I've been rather productive, I do believe.
Emailed all the peeps, jotted down some phone numbers..
HAVE a SHITLOAD of music to check,
But it's all good, cause you know I live for it!
Now, if I only had some lotion..
So my terribly chapped hands could receive some comfort..
It would be the best ever.
I attribute their pain to a combination of things..
1. I have to walk to class.
2. When I moved back to Carbondale.. there was NO HEAT in my van. That's an Ice Chest of death on the fingers and toes. But hey, Mammalogy made it all worth it.
And I suppose, that's really all I attribute it too.
And I guess that's about it.
I'll think of something more important to say later..
Maybe, lol
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| CDs in the Mail |
[04 Jan 2005|03:59pm] |
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May I take a moment,
To just say..
When people burn you a CD of their favorite songs, and send it to you in the mail.
Along with a CD of their band..
It would be awesome if you send a TRACK LISTING..
Lol
But, definetely,
When someone sends you a bonus CD of their favorite songs,
You definetely feel that warm squidgy feeling
Of Happiness.
That is All, LOL
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[04 Jan 2005|10:48am] |
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I think I am increasingly coming to the conclusion,
That I hate time.
That's right..
Time, you're the worst...
When you want something to last forever,
You're left heartbroken when it's done.
When you're heartbroken,
And want all the pain to go away...
Time goes by in miniscule increments.
And it Hates..
TIME YOU HATE!!
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| Last of the Night!! |
[30 Dec 2004|10:06pm] |
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Well, I'm about to go to bed!!
Being as tomorrow is New Years Eve and all..
Better get some rest in, huh?!!
Today's conclusions go as follows:
1. Strawberry Starfruit Kool-aid, might be a gift from the Lord, to me. Now, I know it sounds far fetched, but seriously.. It's pink, it is STARfruit, and well.. it's caffeine free Kool-Aid.
2. Soap-Operas = Good Deal
3. Starbucks = Devil
4. Wish in life: Someone writes a Romancy Song to/about me!!
Today's questions go as follows:
1. What happened to dating? I've never been on a date! That's the problem, right there... I skip the 'courting' phase *as Mitzi so appropriately put it*
2. Might I just question... What exactly makes my heart ache? Cause seriously.. When it feels like 8 semi's are on a treadmill, that is SEWN OF MY MOTHERF'IN heart, yah bad news. And I'm being for real here, cause I know emotion, is in your brain, but my heart is in my chest, right. So, I wonder.. and this is me being theoretic.. Do you suppose, that the neurons from your head, transmit heartache to the chest, and really it is a neurological response to those transmitters, that make it, I don't know, like tense up...? Get it?
**** QUOTE OF MY YEAR TIMES a MILLION (written at 2:25 a.m 12/31/04 *****
Jamie, you know what it is. You are a Mozart, a Chopin. Well, what I mean is, you're like a great work of music. You have every emotion, love, anger, sadness. And it's just harmonious, it's just so beautiful, really. And everyone identifies with it. You can hear your own story when you listen to this stuff. And I, and anyone, can see thier own story in you, cause you care so much. It's like your face is the conductor, and you're eyes are like this violin solo. And some instruments are really ugly, and some are so pretty, but that doesn't matter. Cause you know, it's the beautiful song you hear no matter what, and that, that is the beauty that people see when they look at you. That is what is so pretty and makes people, like me, want to hear it over and over again.
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| Being a Live Journal NERD |
[30 Dec 2004|08:52pm] |
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You're so a LJ nerd, when you change you background image...
TO WISH EVERYONE a HAPPY NEW YEAR
*woot woot*
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| Dear, Sweet, Soap Operas |
[30 Dec 2004|07:11pm] |
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Since You've Been Gone ~ Kelly Clarkson |
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So, being out of college, momentarily.. Vacation and all, you know.. I will most assurdely say.. That I freakin' love soap operas, LOL I know how my daytime will go, planned around two shows in paticular: All My Children & General Hospital... General Hospital much, much more so.. And I would like to take this moment, To sort-of-say.. My tribute, To my three very attractive, Daytime Soap Hunks, LOL
Numero Uno:
OH DEAR SWEET Jacob Young... Or, to those of you that watch the soaps, JR Chandlier. The madder he gets, OH gosh, how much cuter he gets!! I'm talking, I just don't even know what to say... LOOK at the above, for gosh sakes.. How can one go wrong?
NUMBER Two
TYLER Christopher.. ***Drools*** His Name, TYLER, that's freakin' hot on it's on. So, his name in the show.. Nikolas <---- THAT's Freakin HOT too. Sigh.. Sometimes, you get to see him playing duel roles. That's twice the freakin' Tyler. (Did I say the name is Hot?!!). Any day, my friends, Any day.
And the Final, Numero Trois!!!
 
Scott *** SIGH YOU"RE GORGEOUS **** Clifton
He's Dillon Quatermaine in the show. And OH GOD, I watch every day, eager, that he be a part of the story. I don't care who he's dating, as long as he's present. Would you like to date everyone on the show, so you can atleast occupy 45% of the running time. Oh Scott, you're mom called.. and said you should SO date me. And in the show, he's a little bulkier than these pictures, which makes him even MORE gorgeous, if you can possibly imagine being anymore gorgeous than that. I'm talking, LOOK at the smile.
Life is good, my friends. And so are ABC soaps!!
~*jamie*~
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| Well Holy Cow |
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Let me just start this entry off by saying..
I'M JUST FREAKING, I DON'T EVEN KNOW RIGHT NOW.
Alright, that's better.
Let's just, give a name to what I feel right now.
Not so much anger,
But I think it's resentment.
Yes, we'll go with this,
And I needed to purge that thought,
Before I go jogging,
Which happens to be an endorphine ridden adventure,
That makes me feel tons better.
But,
Without having said this,
I would've just gone back to bed,
Which is my automatic defense response at 10:30 in the morning.
I just don't get it.
I don't get anything.
And it just makes me freakin' mad.
And thank you Trivium,
For your very angry music.
Cause atleast it makes me think you guys are on my side.
UGH!!!!!
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